I knew a girl in college
With flowers on her skin
Now they all lay broken
Beaten, bruised, and thin.
There’s blood upon the tile,
And splatters in the sink.
But her heart it hurts the hardest,
Those broken edges sting.
~OutletInInk
-please check up on your friends, they may not be doing as well as you think, and that breaks my heart.
Might pull a Van Gogh,
Start eatin’ that yellow paint.
I don’t even know bro,
I can’t even think straight.
All I really know
is that
I want to be happy.
I want to be happy,
Despite this shit that’s coming at me.
I don’t want to imbibe
Want to remember my life
Want to pick up this knife
Carve out the anguish inside
But,
Maybe I should eat the yellow paint.
Maybe I should tell ‘em of my pain.
Maybe I should find another plane.
Existence where my life is not a stain.
So mix it up.
Eat it up.
Drink it up.
Sippy cup.
You can’t relate?
you’re in luck.
Watch me fuck my whole life up.
Imma paint you a picture.
Using colours and lies.
Yellow and blue,
I’m dreaming of skies.
Think I might want to fly.
Think I still want to die.
Guess I’ll give it a try,
Pour more paint up inside.
And I’ll,
Mix it up.
Eat it up.
Drink it up.
Sippy cup.
You can’t relate?
you’re in luck.
Watch me fuck my whole life up.
Mix it up.
Eat it up.
Drink it up.
Sippy cup.
You can’t relate?
you’re in luck.
Watch me fuck my whole life up.
Whole life up.
Whole life up.
Whole life up.
Whole life up.
Might pull a Van Gogh.
Start eatin’ that yellow paint.
I don’t really know.
I can’t fuckin’ think straight.
~OutletInInk
“I still remember every word of my primary school hymns. Imagine they’d made us sing the periodic table or world capital cities instead!”
Chris Fox
“Acting touches nerves you have absolutely no control over.”
Alan Rickman
“With any part you play, there is a certain amount of yourself in it. There has to be, otherwise it’s not just acting. It’s lying.”
Johnny Depp
“You’re gonna suffer, but you’re going to be happy about it.”
Ron Weasley
“I feel like we can learn a lot by observing nature, from lightning we can learn to always change direction when needed in order to arrive at the destination.”
~C.C.
“We are in control of the one asset that we all give the most fucks about, and that’s time.”
Gary Vaynerchuk
Hey all! So this was a little side project I put together back during my first year of college, i’m not sure if it actually classifies as a podcast since it has a few different conversations cut together rather than just done in one take but i’m still pleased with it! I miss having such a wide variety of like-minded individuals around, but I know more will come into my life over time. ^-^
I’ve been fighting inside of my head for almost a full decade now, so you’ll see a lot of my old work follows this theme of trying to somehow understand just what everyone else saw about this life that I didn’t. Over the years i’ve found this audio to be inspiring to me as well as a few of the people whom I shared it with, so now i’ve decided it’s time to share it with all of you.
Wishing you all the most tranquil, loving, and peaceful vibrations possible,
C.C.
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