“Superior leaders are willing to make a mistake and cut their losses. Be willing to admit that you’ve changed your mind. Don’t persist when the original decision turns out to be a poor one.”Brian Tracy
Loving you is like loving the sand in an hourglass
Silky smooth yet coarse as you pass through my fingers.
It’s like catching raindrops in your hands
for every bit you catch, so much more is slipping past.
We had a past.
A pretty good one too,
Yet I must be an hourglass
As I can feel you slipping through,
Your body running over mine
I guess we used up all our time..
I wonder if I’m still on your mind?
You’re on mine..
Every time I close my eyes I feel the touch of your lips, your mouth on my neck, your hips on my hips.
But then they open and I’m alone again, on my own again.
Looking at you through a pane of glass I can see that you’re happy.
Or you seem happy.
Either way I’m happy you’re happy or seem happy cause honestly as long as you’re happy it’s fine that I’m not.
You found friends and a direction
While I payed to get lost.
I disappeared into a sea of bodies and alcohol and way too hyped DJs
I did this on replay
And over again.
And while I’m getting better at hiding the pain
I can’t seem to stop meeting new people with your name.
I’m not sure if this is a sign that I’m supposed to forget you
I mean I’m certainly glad I met you
But now I need you to let me go,
For the final time
I loved you
Now it’s time for me to go.
Loving her, is like falling.
That weak limbed, newborn creature
Who’s barely graduated from crawling.
New pudgy limbs, weak and bruised from trying to walk.
Tear stained cheeks left over from the overflowing stormy rivers that is bawling.
Loving her, is like arguing with a toddler.
Get her food, wake her from naps, and coax her out when she’s stonewalling.
Every single fight, reverts to name calling.
She’s, she’s worth it.
See, loving her is like, it’s like falling.
It’s so absolutely effortless, right up until the ground hits.
As always people, keep spreading all the peace, love, and tranquil vibes you can!
Why do you dream of travel? For me I have always felt that I enjoy being rooted, but I don’t want to be tied down if that makes sense? Like I want to have someone with me that I can use as my rock or an anchor if you will, like you have a good connection and work well together. But at the same time I don’t wanna be tied down to staying in the same physical location all the time, like I constantly want new scenarios and I enjoy meeting new people. There are so many different opportunities that can arise from travelling this world, like I don’t get how so many people just grow up and eventually die in their hometown or even like just their home state/province. Like just go out and travel people! There’s so much out there, so many different cultures, different types of food, even just like different forms of nature flora and fauna, and it’s just so incredibly gorgeous how diverse this world is.
I feel like a big problem for me in my life is that i’ve always felt the need for constant change. You know like when I was young I would just jump between friend group to friend group, I just had to change things up or i’d get bored you know? So it just made sense to constantly change up the group of people I would talk to. When I graduated high school I am pretty much left a good portion of my old friends behind and focused on making a bunch of new connections in college. A lot of those people just changed who they were or I changed and we just didn’t click like we had used to, however some of them I did a social experiment on just out of curiosity and that sort of went, well yeah let’s just leave it at a social experiment but most of them took the worst outcome they could’ve chosen so yeah; it was time for a change. I mean i’ve still got a bunch of people from back then whom i’m still super close with, and of course there’s also others that I grew up with as like childhood best friends and we just went down entirely different paths in our lives. But I don’t know, it’s kind of hard going a different direction from the people you usually would be around. I mean I know you’ll eventually manifest and attract a whole new friend group based on the new things that you’re now into but people are always sad about leaving one another behind. I mean we try not to completely lose touch but sometimes you just do, sometimes people just change differently overtime and that’s life. That’s how we grow.
I feel like I’ve been changing a lot lately so it’ll make sense to me if I lose some people in the coming times of my life. There’s been this sort of awkward energy lately between us and I know it stems from all my mediation type stuff since all of that has really been changing me recently and i’m beginning to give it more value in my life, like i’m really holding this vested interest in spirituality, meditation, being present in the moment, and all of this social media/content creation stuff. I’m just noticing some people’s attitudes beginning to change as they just don’t get it. Like I know that this has all been causing a wonderful positive upswing in both my life and mood lately and I know it’s beneficial to me, like this is the path I need to be walking down right now. And part of me somewhat thinks they might come to understand it, like they could get it, maybe..but I’m really not sure whether or not I want to stay with them long enough to find out. Who knows though, whether they’ll come to join me in the same state of mind or not. But I guess we’ll find out!
What’s your favourite thing about travel? For me I’d have to say I love the smells in the new areas, just listening to people talk in different languages every day, and I especially love the food, along with the smell of the food, and all the different spices that just waft into your nose as you walk along the street! I also just feel way more energized when I travel, like I’ll get up in the morning and walk over to the bathroom, open the window, lean out over the balcony, and take in a huge breath of fresh air! I don’t feel lethargic when I travel and wake up in the morning, like I don’t wait around my bed just lounging for a couple hours on my phone being like ‘I can’t get out of bed, ugh.’ No, when i’m travelling and that alarm goes off i’m up and out the door speedy quick, I’ll try and emulate that when I’m not travelling sometimes however that energy you get from travelling which helps make it so easy to get up and go places, it just doesn’t seem to hang around for very long.
Also I feel like I should mention that most of this post has been made by me just talking into the microphone of my phone and having it just use the speech to text function built into it. So I’m going to go back and correct as much of the grammar as possible (or at least as much as I notice in this quick skim through) because I can see it spelling some things incorrectly as I speak this paragraph out loud. So yea if I miss anything and you find a typo or weird bit of grammer, that’s why it’s there, probably. I mean I didn’t go to college for English but I feel like my grammer’s pretty good, I spent way too much time reading and writing for it to not be at the bare minimum, adequate. Anyways that’s it for today’s post! It would’ve been up earlier but Danny Reitzloff *moon hawk* started a livestream on instagram so I had to go and hang out there for a bit of course. I actually really enjoy writing out posts while watching someone’s live stream, it helps keep the inspiration coming and renews my beliefs in the power of content creation. But yea, that’s all folks! I wish you all so much peace, love, and tranquil vibrations!
I spent the last few days just meditating and planning out where i’m going to go with things, along with watching some videos and gleaning bits of knowledge. To be perfectly honest i’m still not one hundred percent sure on any of my decisions and some of them are constantly changing in my head. But I do know this, this blog is going to be up for at least a year. During this year i’m going to add an instagram account linked to the page, in fact i’ve already done so! You can find me @fadetostay if you’d like to check thing out, i’m going to be posting at least once or twice a week but that may change in the future.
All of the videos I was watching were telling me things like “Don’t be idle.” “Make yourself useful.” I mean it’s things we tell children right? But nonetheless these sayings still hold true no matter what your age is. In this day and age all around us we see creators and consumers; the people who walk around day and night spending money on things they think they really want but don’t actually need, and the people who are always creating, releasing new content and drawing in more and more consumers. Some of those creators even help teach others to create! Which is where they make their income, well not income I guess but more like how they build their brand up to the point that they can start finding ways to generate an income from it. (Which is technically different, right?…right?)
I think depending on what I can get going with this blog and Instagram I might even begin attempting to generate some sort of YouTube presence. As InfiniteWaters says “Video has the largest domain right night now.” And if i’m ever going to get to the point of being able to use blogging, videos, and social media as my main sources of income than i’m going to have to start somewhere right? On the upside I already have a tiny bit of experience with this from my Acting! Take that everyone who said an arts degree was useless! Ha ha! Sorry, that was quite gratifying. Also I should clarify i’m not apologizing for any other reason than i’m canadian and that’s just what we do, ^-^
Do you know what every single one of the big, super popular, tons of followers, content creators say? At one point they’ll all recommend you getting yourself a website, it’s how they grew their own brands usually. They all talk about it along with the phrases “Consistency is key.” or “Stay focused.” “Be confident.” “Be bold.” “Stop waiting!” and my favorite “Always ask yourself ‘how is this working for me?'” But you know why they all constantly say these phrases? These daily motivators and tidbits to keep you going? Because they work. Honest, they’re all one hundred percent true. If you follow all of those things in this day and age with the technology and resources available to us, all while living truthfully and following what you love, you will find an avenue to succeed. All it takes is a little time and discipline, which are honestly two things I need to manage way better for myself and I will going forwards. I know I keep saying i’m going to get back into posting every single day and letting it go, but i’m saying it once more. Hopefully for the last time for a long while.
I might try learning how to automate things, like posts for social media. That way I can always have some more posts on the way even if I end up needing a day off from writing. For now though i’ve got to hop over to instagram and toss up a post or two, I hope you took something from this. I always feel like I end up teaching myself more about any topic I begin to write about, but then again they say the best way to learn is to teach!
As always, peace, love, and tranquil vibes,
Well dang, there I was doing so well at making an obligatory post without missing a single day before this happened. Even with that cold I still managed to put some stuff out even though it wasn’t super long or fact filled. Well there’s the first of a new category of lessons, we all fall down sometimes. We all have lapses in priority or concentration. But that’s okay.
Sure we all fall down sometimes and sure some of us take a little bit longer to get back up, but the fact of the matter is; we always get up again. Falling down; failure, is practically a requirement of learning. Eventually you may get to the point where a fall feels more like a stumble than an actual fall! A point where by the time you’ve begun falling you’re already started on picking yourself back up again!
I’m back to travelling around a little bit, even though it’s still within the borders of Canada. Today I’m off to London! It’s a lot smaller than Toronto but it’s got great people, a lot of my high school friends went to college there, and it’s got some delightful little clubs! I’d recommend Lavish if you were in a clubbing mood while visiting, it’s got a much nicer and more welcoming vibe than most of the other clubs I’ve visited there. Plus it’s lgbtq+ so however you identify you should be welcomed with open arms!
I’ll be running around the city a bunch over the next few days so we’ll see if I manage to snap some cool pictures of the area. I make no promises though since I’m planning to be mostly indoors and since there shall be festivities I’m not sure how often I’ll have those quiet shutterbug moments. I’ll try to seek some of them out though, maybe a shot of a rooftop patio or something haha.
Anyways it’s going to be great getting back into the swing of things, I’ll be trying to once again post once a day so things should pick right back up! And if not than I blame my London friends and I’ll be back up to a regular posting schedule the second I leave that place! I look forward to getting back in touch with all of you and making this blog begin to grow again! I hope you’ve all been growing in whatever aspects of life interest you as well!
Peace, love, and tranquil vibes,
I’ve got an audition tomorrow morning and currently getting over a cold so right now I need to just head to bed and pray to whatever powers may be that my throat heals up overnight along with this stuffed up nose.
I’ll let you all know how it went afterwards, it’s the first of two opportunities I’ve got over the next few days. Keep searching out how to open those doors people! Keep advancing! Everyday, even when you’re sick, you’re still advancing in life. Don’t let time spent become a regret, never stop moving, evolving.
Anyways keep it real and do your best to live in the moment, we’re all divine beings, we’ve got this!
Peace, love, and tranquil vibes all,