Exhausted Update

What do you do on the days where you can’t drag yourself out of bed? Personally I enjoy curling up with a nice book and some tea, at least most days. Others I prefer just putting on some earbuds and losing myself in the music, everything else becomes so trivial as you drift away. I really wanted to write a blog post today so I wouldn’t kill my daily posting streak but I really wasn’t in the mood. I woke up super late feeling groggy, had a headache for pretty much the entire day, and then just felt out of it all evening. I guess it would be a pretty smart idea to write up a surplus of articles so I’ve got some content to post on my off-days and I’m not always scrambling to make a good post on my usual schedule, especially because I would love the occasional off day. Although I know I should just be writing everyday for the practice, for practice makes perfect!

I honestly can’t think of anything else to write right now, I may just leave this post here as a placeholder and promise to myself that I’ll write up multiple articles tomorrow in order to make up for today’s. I’m trying to get this post done but my keyboard is blurring along with the screen and my whole body feels heavy, or in other words I’m exhausted. Tomorrow you can expect the same routine to start back up again, I just needed a break according to my body. I’m going to end this one here since I don’t want to start sleepily rambling off into tangents, but I hope all is well with all of you! As for me, it’s time to fluff up a pillow and finally sleep.

Peace, love, and some sleepy tranquil vibes,

C.C.

Deepening Or Branching?

It’s kind of odd seeing all the new blog hate posts. Well I guess I wouldn’t call them hate posts but they all seem to be actively discouraging people from making blogs unless you can offer a service or affiliate marketing. Even then they all casually talk about having a couple hundred followers in order to do that.. How do they expect people to get up to a few hundred followers without learning from failure? Everything goes “Use perfect grammar, attract clients by turning yourself into a minor authority on a topic, find a popular niche and model yourself after that. Well sure you can generate a following that way but at that point you’re no longer really blogging are you? You’re just turning yourself into a business clone.

I don’t want to ever forget where i’ve come from. So many blogs seem to evolve into such large consumer fed constructs and lose the voice of the author which originally attracted people to the blog, I don’t want to become just another toneless voice on the internet. Another one of those blog owners who lurk in the comments of similar blogs in order to learn how to connect into that source or readers by seeing which of that blog’s posts generated the most traffic over the past couple of months. From their they usually go into guest posting on that blog in order to siphon traffic to their own blog. Now i’m not saying that all guest posting is evil or has an underhanded intent as it can sometimes be as simple as two collaborators deciding to help each other out.

Being perfectly honest ‘guest posting’ does somewhat intrigue me do to it’s potential to grow an audience, plus it’s been used to great success by a lot of big name blogs out there. I just feel that it would be rather impudent to the owner of that blog, regardless i’m sure i’ll get over some of my moral compunctions regarding the issue over time.

Anyways i’ve now started reaching a point where i’m going to need to decide if I should slightly branch out what I post about or if it would make more sense to just dive deeper into what I seem to have made as my core topic, any thoughts? Since I like to add an aspect of tranquility when I can, I was thinking of doing some posts on the effects of loneliness and self isolation. Specifically how one’s mindset and the thoughts they view of as normal begin to change over prolonged isolation, how one’s priorities and concerns seem to slightly shift. I’d also like to get into talking about some heavy topics such as social anxiety, depression, and eating disorders seeing as both have had quite a prevalent effect on my life. All of which I have experience with personally through both myself and with those who I hold dear.

Originally today I had planned to write something about why there’s so much dislike for hosting ads on your blog but I started to somewhat see what everyone’s point was so I became uncertain of the tone I wanted the post to have. The main concerns seem to be that ads take people away from your page, add extra loading time for when people are attempting to view the site, and that you have no control over what the ads are showing people so your post/site could end up advertising products or services of which you’d really rather not be associated with. Each and every one of those seems like a good reason to me however like I said earlier in this post I don’t understand why new bloggers aren’t encouraged to experiment for themselves. Why aren’t we left to learn to grow from our failures, especially with all of these options built into the site? Hence why i’ve currently got ads enabled.

I’m probably going to disable the ads after some time since I don’t really like all of the clauses within the ad hosting agreement, especially the one’s where they can enact a penalty if you post or talk about something they disagree with. I mean i’m not currently planning to post anything with ‘Any content that is inappropriate or not “family safe”.’ however what constitutes inappropriate is apparently decided upon at their discretion. I don’t enjoy the thought of just laying every post at their mercy. They also have control over anything ‘unlawful or promotes unlawful activity’ now i’m not planning to set out to violate laws with posts but being a Canadian citizen rather than U.S. citizen there’s almost certainly a few discrepancies in our laws that i’m unaware of. One of the biggest examples I can think of is what if I decided to make a post about the benefits of CBD which is one of the chemical compounds in marijuana? Marijuana is legal here in Canada however i’m not sure if every state has legalized it yet in the U.S. which could potentially make any posts about it “unlawful”.

I should probably specify that at the moment i’m not currently planning to post about anything marijuana related but there are a ton of benefits from it and ways it could be applied to meditation. Heck there’s even history of it already being strongly prevalent among spiritual groups as a way of communing with the divine/your higher self/the collective consciousness. There’s even a ton of recorded medical benefits aside from the spiritual ones. Huh, maybe I will end up posting about it after doing more research on whether it would be permitted or not. Anyways if you made it all the way to the bottom of this train-wreck of a post than I both thank and congratulate you. I was a bit distracted yesterday leading to such a long pause between posts resulting in things being a bit unstructured, or at least more so than usually. Soon i’ll be back to turning this blog into a nice tranquil refuge from your daily lives, I hope to see you join me on this journey. ^-^

As always dear readers, peace, love, and tranquil vibes,

C.C.

In the words of Peep “Ash Is Our Purest Form”

So Much Out There!

Do you ever find yourself trying to learn a new language just because you researched a place and decided to go there? Like completely spur of the moment and then two days later you’ve learned an entire new alphabet? Cause same. Except my only problem is I keep getting interested in new places, languages, and people. There’s just so much out there! How are people possibly content just living in the same place for their entire lives? I don’t understand it! I really want to travel more and experience as much of this beautiful world as I can, there’s just so much to see. Not only that, but there’s so much to hear! All it takes to learn a new language is some time, dedication, and an internet connection.

Currently i’m being a bit overambitious and attempting to learn Hindi and Japanese along with polishing off my French which i’d say i’m adequate at. Not amazing but adequate, my biggest problem is I keep swapping languages. Japanese has three alphabets, hindi has one, and then french is similar but still different with their alphabet, so understandably it gets a bit confusing at times. Regardless, i’m still steadily making progress with each language! I usually use Duolingo because of their companion flashcard app but you can also listen to podcasts, watch lessons, google books in other languages or movies, all you need to do is just keep exposing yourself to the languages you want to learn, give yourself time to work through all the dry bits, and then start having conversations with people who speak the language; works especially well if you’re in the country of that language so you’re hearing it everywhere, everyday!

There’s plenty of reasons to learn a new language if you aren’t currently working on one. Primarily being you’ll develop the ability to watch media in that language. You can read it’s books, watch it’s movies, tv shows, plays, understand the music! Plus you’ll become exposed to a whole new culture! There’s so many different ways of life in this world and we all get so focused on the ways within our country’s borders. Especially recently, how much of the hate in this world would disappear if we all just took a moment to learn about the culture of our neighbours? I’m not saying learn to just love everyone as I feel there always needs to be a balance of light and dark in this world, but if we just understood each other? That would be the most beautiful day in existence, I hope to live long enough for us all to at least get a glimpse of an understanding. A glimpse is all I ask. Can you picture it?

Peace, love, and tranquil vibes people,

C.C.

Europe Is So Incredibly Beautiful ^-^

Mindset Metamorphosis.

You ever wake up one day and just decide that you’re going to become a new person? Like you came to a realization about your usual habits and behaviour that you weren’t too enthused with, so you just consciously decided to change? And then you find out it’s a lot more difficult than you thought it would be when the idea first jumped inside your head and you’re not sure you’ve got what it takes to truly follow through with that shift from the norm? Me too, well in a way. I recently came to the realization that I was stagnating. I enjoy laying around relaxing, playing video games, reading, procrastinating on actual important things. In school I would always leave assignments until the eleventh hour which somehow ended up infecting other parts of my life to the point where I was constantly aware of things like bills, my dwindling bank account, soon to expire licences which I could’ve renewed online if i’d been proactive, etc. To sum it up I was basically sitting on a track watching a train come at me while pondering over the best course of action, and then sidetracking myself from thinking about that action resulting in doing absolutely nothing until it was either move or get hit by the train.

So I eventually decided to quit deliberating and actually do something. Sure my usual extracurricular were fun but if i’m being blatantly honest with myself than they’re all various forms of escapism which I was using to distract myself from having to make major decisions or listen to the thoughts going through my own head. This had to stop. I was at a point in my life where the sheer number of pathways I could now take having graduated college was so overwhelming in number that I locked up and couldn’t seem to follow any of them. All I was doing was retreating to my books day after day, to social media, to Netflix, etc. I was aware that I was simply letting everything pile up as my bank account drained itself drier and drier, so then came the question; what was I going to do now? I couldn’t very well just continue spinning my wheels in place.

So I got up, I took a shower, ate some food, and started thinking. What was I good at? How could I begin doing something productive with my life without confining myself to a cubicle or taking up a nine to five job? I thought long and hard into the night making a list of all sorts of potential avenues for me to take before I finally came to another realization. This brainstorming was all well and good but it wouldn’t actually accomplish anything. I was just on the edge of falling into a pattern of formulating hypothetical jobs/pathways throughout life, planning them all out from step one to thirty five, and then..nothing. I would have nothing to show for the time spent if I never actually went and physically followed up on step one. So I did. Then I took another step, and another. Soon enough I found myself laying the groundwork for future success, but then I started thinking and second guessing. I began undermining my own abilities in comparison to others, which brought me to my third realization.

In this world the one person you should never underestimate is yourself. You’re capable of more than you could possibly have imagined so don’t doubt yourself, don’t doubt your abilities. Why would any other person who underwent the same or similar training to you deserve a higher place in your mind? Why get into that mentality of, “I’m still new at this, they’ll probably beat me for this position, I bet they’re way more qualified.” cause maybe they are maybe they aren’t. Chances are you’re just as qualified as that stranger, you’ve taken steps to get there today just like they did. Anyways the more I started trying to make that my mindset the more things seem to work out, in part i’d attribute that to other people subconsciously noticing the confidence/self-assuredness I began projecting. But also in part to ‘The Law Of Attraction’ which when you take out most of the technical terms equates to the universe will attempt to create/provide for you those things of which your thoughts are focused on. You could also just say if you truly want it and work for it, one day chances are you’ll get it.

So I began chasing it. Day by day I began working after my dreams, putting myself out there, talking to people, making connections. This blog stemmed from my habit of reverting to escapism in my spare time, after doing it for such a long time the sudden life shift has been a hard thing to keep ahold of. Especially when I love each of the things I used as escapism, now i’ve most certainly not quit reading and the like but I began restricting myself to a certain amount of time for it each day. During that newly freed up block of time every day I began writing. At first just out of boredom if i’m being perfectly honest but it very quickly transformed into a genuine interest and enjoyment in writing. That enjoyment soon turned into a bit of a feedback loop, I would have some fun writing out some sort of post, receive likes and comments, and with each and every like or comment I became compelled to write even more.

Eventually though I decided that I wanted a place where I could truly write, not just social media sites or writing contests. I wanted the ability to grow a blog and format it however I wished. Something that could transform my writing from being just another time filling pastime to a viable use of time. I like to think this is a viable use of my time. Maybe I won’t ever get anywhere with this blog, maybe I will. Regardless I don’t think I would’ve been able to forgive myself had I left this as a ‘what if?’ rather than following through with it as I did. How many times in your life have you had the question of ‘What if?’, how many times have you tried something new only to fail but still be glad you tried? For me the answer is “not enough.” and that is something I sorely feel needs rectifying.

Dream loudly, live peacefully, and spread those loving tranquil vibes,

C.C.

The Restless Mind.

How do you all spend your time when you can’t sleep? For most of my life i’ve been an insomniac and having grown up in a family which was very homeopathic in it’s remedies I often find myself just accepting the wakefulness and finding ways to occupy my time. I also absolutely hate the feeling of swallowing pills or even just using a pharmaceutical remedy for something so small such as the inability to fall asleep when I know it’ll remedy itself once my body reaches the point of being so exhausted it just passes out. I’m aware that’s not the most healthy thing to do but i’ve become used to it. Anyways what remedies do you usually employ when you’re struck by a sense of restfulness and the kingdom of sleep eludes you?

Now having decided to avoid the pharmaceutical route I ended up scouring the net for a variety of different ways and well, most were unsuccessful there were a few I found merit in. That age old counting sheep trick has never once worked, actually now that I think about it i’m not sure I even know anyone that it’s worked for, huh.. Kind of odd. Well moving on, one of the most effective ones I found was surprisingly a focus exercise. All you need to do is get in the position you usually find most comfortable for sleep and get all your blankets nicely positioned, now visualize a candle surrounded by shadow. What you’re going to do is try to synch the flickering of the flame with your breathing, feel the shadows grow stronger every time the candle flickers, slowly over time the idea is to diminish the light your candle gives off until eventually it winks out and the darkness reigns supreme. By the time you’re swallowed by the darkness you should be asleep, or at least that’s the idea. This one while being more successful than the others is still rather unreliable; however i’ve found most sleep techniques to be unreliable so that’s not saying much.

A great one that I stumbled across which I pretty much always employ even when sleep hasn’t been eluding me is to lower your room temperature, which in most parts of the year translates to sleep with an open window. Not only does it seem to improve quality of sleep but that fresh air is really noticeable especially if you live with other people, in which case it’ll probably make your room smell better then theirs. It may not actually smell better or that different, but the comparison between the stale air from most of the house to the fresh air you let in from outside will most certainly be noticeable. In college I was often told I had the best smelling room in the house even though fresh air was pretty much my main secret for that…well okay that and an essential oil diffuser but regardless that natural air makes a difference!

I often came across sites screaming that if you used the “4-7-8” breathing method than you could learn to always fall asleep in under a minute. Puh-lease, maybe that trick works for some people but I barely noticed it having any effect. I will recognize though that if your problem is that you can’t seem to relax before bed than this may actually help you. Maybe. It gets you to place your tongue behind your front top teeth and exhale enough that you make a ‘whooshing’ sound, inhale through your nose to a count a four before holding it for a count of seven, then exhale for eight seconds through your mouth making that noise from before, essentially you’ve now done the technique and you’re just supposed to rinse and repeat until it works. Personally i’d say if you already have the control over your emotions to maintain a relaxed/calm state of mind then this will probably do absolutely nothing for you.

Yoga and meditation are both extremely useful for calming your mind and working through a bit of your excess energy so that you can just crawl under your covers before succumbing to sleep, although other times I find meditation will keep you awake so it can be kind of hard to find the correct balance. Also a lot of people tell you to avoid looking at your clock as it can give you anxiety over your sleeplessness, while in some cases this may be true it really doesn’t matter too much if you can lower the importance of time in your mind. Accept that sleep will come when it comes or it simply won’t, any stressing done over it will simply keep you up longer so release time of it’s importance. After that looking at the clock doesn’t really matter, but you also won’t be inclined to look at the clock for the same aforementioned reason.

My personal favourite activity for getting to sleep when it’s eluding you is to go through your usual nightly routine, get all curled up in bed, and then begin to read. Try and pick something that interests you but not to the point of interest that you’ll keep yourself up until dawn trying to finish it. If you’re like me and speed read everything try and slow that process down, really savour each and every word you can allowing (over time) that drowsiness to settle in. Eventually you’ll probably reach a point where you’re ready for sleep, give into that drowsiness and let yourself drift off. Especially because if you power through that drowsiness you’re likely to read until morning utilizing a fresh wave of energy and that’s really not what you wanted from this. Now while this is certainly a personal favourite and one I almost always employ, you should be aware that it can be a long time before that drowsiness sets in, sometimes even two to three hours. Even then its not assured.

Of course there is one technique which almost always cuts right through my insomnia letting me sleep, sleeping with someone else. Now i’m not saying that in the more lewd expression of the phrase although that would most certainly tire you out, but in the more innocent but still physical way. Cuddle up with someone. I’m not sure about the exact science to it but this will almost always work for me, it’s warm, cozy, comfortable, safe. You can zone out to the hypnotic rhythm of their breathing or the beating of their heart. Some part of me always realizes that I could wake them up through tossing and turning so i’ll try to remain still as much as I can and usually that stillness transforms into unconsciousness. I’ve never had the chance to find out aside from once when I passed out on a couch cuddling with a cat, but i’m fairly certain that the presence of an animal also has the same effect to a certain extent.

I didn’t mean to wait so long in the day to make this post but sleep was proving rather elusive last night so my schedule is a bit off. However i’m certainly going to try my best not to get too far off schedule with this blog, currently i’m trying to post on the daily with the occasional day having multiple posts but we’ll see how that changes with time. I want to keep doing daily posts, and I will but i’m going to keep an eye on how things go for the few first weeks so I can try to avoid burning myself out. If anyone has any suggestions on how they keep themselves from running out of things to post about while staying within a niche, than I would love to hear them. I mean i’ve got some ideas for how things are going to go but it’s always nice hearing about the process of others.

Peace, love, and tranquility,

C.C.

“Every morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most.” ~ Buddha

Staying Dedicated. Or At Least That Was The Starting Intent.

How do people always stay so completely dedicated to a task? Even when it’s something I really enjoy there’ll come a point in time where something else becomes super tempting and i’ll switch focus for a little bit. It’s like there’s always something dedicated to pulling you away from your work even if that something is just a sudden urge to clean your house, although that’s more procrastination. Anyways before I let myself get distracted from writing this, here are some quick tips for staying on focus.

One way which I find works especially well for me is telling other people what you plan to do, like set a goal for yourself and then mention it in a conversation to them. Every time you’re about to miss a day or drop the habit you’ll remember saying to them that you were going to do it on the daily and you’ll feel sort of compelled not to let them down, thus getting you back into doing it. I feel like blogging is going to be a bit like that for me, over time when my interest starts to wander i’ll just have to think back to the few likes or comments that pop up from time to time. I absolutely hate letting multiple people down so the more readers there end up being, the more dedicated to not letting you all down i’ll become.

Think back to what first made you interested in the thing, often those reasons why you began can end up being the sparks to reignite your passion for it. Also reflect on whatever time and effort you’ve already worked into it, acknowledge that effort. Why would you want to waste it? Time is precious and it’s sands are constantly slipping through our fingertips so don’t look back, keep at it. The best things in life usually require a bit of hard work so you might as well continue taking step after step on your journey, for you’ll get nowhere on your path if you keep changing directions. Or I guess in other words, just hold yourself accountable.

Reach out to others in that niche community, talk about what you’ve set out to do, see how they started out and how they kept at it day after day without break. Ask for their strategies, their dreams, talk about your dreams. We’re pretty much in this together and it only gets easier when we help each other reach for the stars.

Also as you may have noticed I often love to mention meditation, I mean why wouldn’t I though? It has so many wonderful uses. With meditation you can centre yourself and calm your mind. Once you’ve done that it’s much easier to take a non emotionally influenced viewpoint of your own priorities and see where the thing, whatever it is, stands among them. You could also meditate on why you keep getting off topic/distracted, maybe even clear the hangup stopping you. Or at least understand the steps you need to take in order to stay committed to it.

I feel a bit like I’m rambling but honestly this post is as much for me as for you. There’s also all of the generic ones we all know but seem to be bad at following through with; remove yourself from your phone/social media, remove yourself from any other distractions, keep a scheduled time to do it, take breaks, watch what others do and follow their examples, work in a clean/clutter free place, work in a well lit place, and of course let yourself fail, forgive yourself, and try again.

Anyways I don’t think I really have anything else to add right now but we’ll see what techniques I end up employing as I continue down this road. Stay at it, whatever that it is for you be it sports, writing, acting, engineering, dancing, anything. Whatever it is, I assure you it’ll get easier with time, and as it gets easier so too will you improve! As always, peace, love, and tranquil vibes. ^-^

C.C.

A Run On Post That Eventually Reveals How I First Came Up With The Name For This Blog.

All my life i’ve been addicted to reading things, at least since I managed to stumble over my first written words which surprisingly I learned slowly. I blame it on all the french immersion classes I had when I was young, little c.c. must’ve just wanted to read french so english was weird. But holy heck did I devour books the second I was able to! My nose was always buried in a book during my spare time, in this context spare time refers to any moment in class the teachers weren’t looking at me. Outside of school was obviously reserved for adventures and memories though. I had a good childhood full of crackling bonfire summer nights and climbing trees for cherries, much more important than reading or even sitting still that long with the whole wide world out there.

So often in my life have I heard the words “You’re reading all the time, why don’t you pull your head out of the clouds and actually write something for a change? Stop being a slug!” I’m not sure why the go to creature for laying around is a slug instead of something much nicer like a panda or a chubby cheeked hamster. My hair is way too long and well taken care of for something like that and my head’s not in the clouds, it’s in the worlds of others. But oh my word those worlds are beautiful, i’m sad that they couldn’t seem to see it.

Books let you go anywhere, become anyone, witness wonderful things, witness horrifying things, they can teach you, amuse you, and these days you can even search for variations on practically any book that’s been written or turned into a movie. You want evil lord of the rings characters? You’ve got options. Wonder what life would be like as a video game? So many options. Wish a character ended up with someone else or wondered what it would be like if they were related to a different family? Chances are enough people also wanted it and you’ve got enough results that you can pick and choose any specific world you could ever want to enjoy. How can people just look that by without at least being intrigued?

However I then realized of course that I spend so much time in these worlds that I don’t even notice mine moving around me. That was actually where my idea for this blog name first came from, I felt like I had allowed myself to fade from reality in order to stay in these amazing worlds and with my blog I wanted to have something to remind me of that fade. Something to keep driving me forwards. Of course then I realized I have a habit of occasionally trying to live in the past, or more like I get lost in the wisps of what was and will never be. My own little worlds. To move forward we all evolve and change, we fade to stay. By no means does that mean we will disappear though, with every fade you have to come back stronger, work harder, dream larger, chase faster.

I think of it like a journey, the old town must fade behind us as we wander to where next we’ll stay. Basically what i’m trying to say is that we must fade to stay.

Tranquil vibes people,

C.C.

The Journey Begins

Thanks for joining me! I’ve been wanting to write for ages but I could never seem to get the ball rolling, day after day i’d just waste my time thinking about it or other ventures and then getting distracted and eventually getting a whole lot of nothing done. However now that I’ve managed to plow through my mental hangups it’s finally time to begin this exciting adventure! There may just be short posts at first but I look forward to seeing how this goes, it’s a little daunting but i’m sure it’ll get easier with time. Especially the longer I consistently release content.

I’m planning to post stuff about poetry, travelling, odd perspectives, maybe some hippie vibes; all good stuff. Anyways please enjoy your time here!  Peace, love, and positivity to you all!

C.C.

A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step ~ Lao Tzu

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